I constantly hear from my fellow age group that they tire of watching things that were once theirs in youth become trendy. I have heard a lot of this same thing about what has been called “The Witch Wave” or “The Season of the Witch”… Obviously lasting more than a season, but the tide has indeed turned. I honestly think more good things come from it than bad. Sometimes it can be extremely upsetting watching what you love become watered down but remember, the right people are now able to find it. These right people will find it in larger numbers and add more season to the soup.
Yesterday a kind human messaged me and told me she wanted to thank me for reminding her that she is a work in progress that only gets better. I realize I have said this like anyone in this world that has said it, but I also reminded her to dig deeper into what I was really saying. She then replied to me with a question, “We are always in progress right?” Of course we are, but what isn’t really understood is that our continuation is descent. This is why we get better and better. That moment when we are done physically growing in our bodies, we start to descend into darkness. As the flesh begins to fall away, the godhead emerges. I am so happy that “shadow work” has made a popular rise in social media sharing. When I started EPJ, the first item that made an appearance on the EPJ website, was that of the cameo skull. In the description, I made it clear that the only way she warded off evil, was to reflect what was inside of herself. Sure, many understood it, but many more did not. You wouldn’t believe the backlash I got from that. In 2008 an article came out about EPJ that dubbed the jewelry line as, “Something for people with dark practices.” Complete with “satan” in the hashtags. There was a time that everything was this or that. No faceted humanity or option of seeing things from different views. No great work of the inner self. Back then, when I told anyone that their power came from the journeys of the darkest parts of their nature, I would get chastised. Yesterday, I told a girl that her progress comes from her descent, and she got it. No insta-anger, no “Well that’s nice but I am a lightworker” … She got it. It clicked. More and more of this world is arriving at understanding and healing. When you feel tired of things becoming trendy, remember, they have to in order to spread the nature of their understanding. Trends have the power to change mindsets, old ways of thinking, etc. When I started this journey, over 25 years ago, people constantly said I was, “edgy”… “scary” … A lady once came up to an EPJ table and asked me and my best friend Tamra if we “were of the dark arts” …
Now, people see past that. People see what I am saying and understand it. These things are good. As we propel ourselves to the light, we must understand the darkness. The only understanding of the light is having understood the dark. All of this world is faceted. All of this life has many shades of light and dark in varying degrees. As we descend into each phase, know the only way is through. The Moon knows this well and she is a nightly reminder. These phases are a segway, movement is life.
I wrote a series of self-empowerment a few months ago and I am finally getting to make these posts live. A few of these will be on Patreon and the website blog, but then the second section will be on Patreon only. I want to red-letter not only the significance of your own personal power, but I want to remind you that there are going to be a lot of people that will try and take that personal power. I am also going to post a few ways that can remind you about how amazing you are. You don’t have to be “fancy” or “popular” and you don’t have to be perfect. You already have the tools within yourself to make your goals happen. Do not listen to anyone that has anything negative to say about your goals or your dreams. As time goes on, you will see the forest for the trees. More and more. I want you to really listen to yourself. I want you to see the watered-down magic and know-how to pull the ingredients from it, making it potent again. You don’t need anything but yourself. You can do anything you put your mind to! Yes, these posts will be cheesy. Yes, they will be full of “You can do it” style and grace. But in a world like what we are experiencing, maybe that is just what we need more of?
“Quartz for a healthy plant and quartz for a baby. Citrine for a droopy plant and for a flowering lady. Adventurine for a dying plant and aventurine for a boost. Amethyst for a repotted plant and for a new root. Moss Agate for the magic and Moss agate for a multiply. Sodalite for the truth and for the inner eye. Rose Quartz for the food and Rose Quartz for the bond. Malachite for the mallow leaf and for all who are magic donned.”
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After years of hard work and anticipation, it is all coming to fruition. Many of you have been following the Birthstone Truth blogs and posts since 2012 and I appreciate this so much. There is a complete study and discussion started on Patreon if you would like to join. The EPJ Patreon can be found here: www.Patreon.com/Evil_Pawn_Jewelry
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The truth behind birthstones mimics the same truth of everything we see in the modern world. That truth is; everything is a watered-down version of what it once was. From every piece of knowledge we learn, the literature we read, extended to all we see, consume, and breath. Carbon copies of originals. No matter how authentic we live, there isn’t much that is how it was. It is now, what it has become. Nothing stays the same, everything changes and not always for the better. Birthstones are no exception.
Over the years I have seen so many truths about the minerals of the Earth suffocated by machine jewelry store chain corporations and the internet’s fast-paced copy and paste game of telephone. So many truths blurred and knowledge taken from people, all for profit. I honestly feel like our True Birthstones and the knowledge of them have been drowned in the sea of the forgotten. There was a time when your birthstone had to do with your astrological sign and it corresponded to metaphysical properties that you would need in your lifetime pertaining to your chart. I know many people do not want to hear this but the birthstone you grew up knowing is most likely not the one assigned to you through your birthright. Some signs have two or three stones and even more stones after those follow on our Birthplate. One stone is actually assigned according to the location of birth! There is a row pertaining to siblings born before you if any, a stone according to which part of the month you are born, and so many more details beyond that.
If you look deep into the recent history of birthstone assignment, you will find some seriously startling information about the newest lineup of birthstones. They were made up off of sales statistics and marketing strategy. Just a tool to make the old world ways profitable, as always, but profitable after changed to fit what the stores can offer. When stones were not widely available, another color or manmade version was offered. Usually, by manufacturing laboratories, the chain corporations had some sort of interest in. At one point dyes and enhancements were offered to get the desired birthstone. Eventually, the stones were just all together changed. June was given a pearl because of a huge pearl boom coming from new cultured pearls. When a “new stone” was available it was assigned a month. Then when it was mined out or mined thin, a new stone was assigned. These wise marketing magicians even used knowledge of higher birth rates to predict which stone they would assign to what month. This marked the truest beginnings of fast fashion and marketing strategies.
Many specific mines are being picked clean as we speak, I am betting the most current line up will be changed again in about 20 years max. I do not like that powerful jewelry chain corporations have changed what they wanted to manipulate the market. To many in this field, it isn’t held sacred because many do not believe in any correspondence regarding stones and a person’s birth. I believe a person can believe what they wish, but I also believe the old ways should not be rearranged and reassigned for sales purposes. If the stone is rare or just harder to find in that region, so be it. A person can decide if they want it or not.
When it comes to your birthstones, yes stones plural, remember that your birth month and sign are two different things. You have a stone for your month and sign. A stone for the Decan your actual birthdate falls under, and then many more stones that make up your “Birthplate” but your True Birthstones are the stones corresponding with your month and Zodiac.
These rings were made with all of these things into consideration. Using the Zodiac as default and making sure the actual month surrounding the zodiac is included.
The following applies:
Gemini- Agate, Moonstone, and Yellow Cat’s Eye.
Cancer- Onyx, Moonstone, and Emerald.
Leo- Sardonyx, Onyx, and Carnelian.
Virgo- Chrysolite, Brown Zircon, Carnelian, and Aquamarine.
Libra- Opal, Aquamarine, Carnelian, and Pearl.
Scorpio- Golden Topaz, Pearl, and Blue Topaz.
Sagittarius-Bloodstone, Turquoise, and Lapis Lazuli.
Capricorn- Two Garnets and a Ruby.
Aquarius- Amethyst, Hyacinth, and Pearl.
Pisces- Jade, Jasper, Bloodstone, and Aquamarine.
Aries- Bloodstone, Quartz, Turquoise, and Amethyst.
Taurus- Agate, Emerald, Jade, and Malachite.
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‘When the night burns bright to an unbroken ring around the moon, hold on to Tiger’s eye to keep you safe until noon.’
I love old sayings about stones. My Grandmother told me several when I was young, this one included, but I love to research all of them. The ones I know about and the ones I do not. The first thing I do in researching the Old Ways is to learn where the saying came from. What region on this planet was it first recorded? This particular saying was found often by the Scottish settlers of the Americas in the early 1700s. Often found in the Border Ballad tradition, seemly the most effective way for a tradition to stay alive as many were pressured to assimilate into the American ideology. Another popular saying about Tiger’s Eye, equally spread by the songs of Appalachia in the same timeframe, also came from seeing a ring around the moon. ‘When there’s a ring around the moon, rain or snow is coming soon.’ Now it is commonly called a “halo effect” but the symbolic language still lives and breathes. The halo often tells of prediction and depending on the placement of the stars… danger. When the ring is seen, it was known to grab a Tiger’s Eye and carry it the three days of the full moon. Tiger’s Eye is about “seeing.”
Upon further research, it is found that these same uses for Tiger’s Eye were found in the Middle East and the Mediterranean. Many believe the Romans may have brought these beliefs to Britannia a millennia before. Seeing that the gemstone of antiquity to Britannia was the Smoky Quartz and could be traced back to a thousand years before the Great Pyramid of Giza was built, it makes it unlikely. Still possible but unlikely.
It does seem like the “7 Stones” were shared by the world’s heritage in some strange universal way. Oddly, every culture and every civilization used the 7 Stones in the same way. Tiger’s Eye being one of them, it would not be surprising if this stone’s lore wasn’t brought from place to place, but known universally by the people of the world. Predominantly found in Africa but also found in Australia, Brazil, Bruma, Canada, China, India, Korea, all about the Middle East, Spain, and the United States, but even found amongst cultures in places it was not naturally occurring. For example, Tiger’s Eye was highly associated with the early Freyja cults of the North. Of the first discoveries, researchers associated this with Middle Eastern trade that was known to take place between the cultures; being that Tiger’s Eye was highly-priced in Middle Eastern and Egyptian cultures, they could have shared the wisdom and the stone. It was said that traders may have brought this stone and its lore back with them. There are a few anthropology essays looking into this possibility. Upon further study, it has been noted that Tiger’s Eye has been found in graves of antiquity far before any kind of trade was known. The 7 stones defy all rules and timelines known to man.
Tiger’s Eye has always been associated with protection in each culture, but this is sometimes misunderstood. Many believe Tiger’s Eye to be a stone of protection in the sense that is guards or shields you from negativity or low vibrational energy. This is not how it protects. Tiger’s Eye protects you by showing you what is. This can be the future of what is to come, the truth behind friendships, the clarity that is hidden under a foggy situation, or even an overview of the picture. Similar to seeing above like a bird or viewing a map. Tiger’s Eye gives you the Eye to make a plan. If more protection is needed besides “knowing” then Tiger’s Eye must be combined with another stone for protection. Usually a Level 3 stone or higher. For a protection bundle; it is best to use stones for each all-around protection. Example: Protection for the aura, protection from the physical, protection from the mental, etc.
I will continue with six more posts about Tiger’s Eye on Patreon. I will cover clearing, charging, cross crystal combinations, and directional wear of the stone. Tiger’s Eye is a great ally and Level 1 helper crystal. An All-Seeing Eye.
This is an introduction to Animal Symbolism. I will extend further into twenty-seven posts about this topic on Patreon. I can be found on Patreon at www.Patreon.com/Evil_Pawn_Jewelry
One of the top questions I am asked is, “How do I find my spirit animal?” I always cringe a little inside when I hear the phrasing. I always ask people if they wouldn’t mind saying power animal, or even better, “How do I learn to read the messages of the animal world?” Or “How do I understand the self?”
There are so many reasons I ask people to use the correct terminology. The first reason is, being that there are many Indigenous American cultures that have sacred traditions regarding a “spirit animal” that is meant for their family and their tribe’s protection and spirituality. These sacred traditions go back to the beginning of their people’s bloodlines. Seeing that these traditions have been coined “Spirit Animal” during colonization and their cultures have been appropriated into a watered-down imitation of their sacred teachings at just an internet search. Isn’t it understandable to use an appropriate term that separates what you would like to learn about animals and the self from their personal inherited spirituality? The symbolism of the animal world has been oddly lumped together with specific pieces of Indigenous American culture. It has formed into this strange internet phenomenon. When Googling the meaning of your “Spirit Animal” please know that this is some weird, new world, pop culture trend. The majority of these websites use a “cold reading” template for making the pieces fit, then they package it in an Indigenous American wrapping paper and a bright red bow, complete with a feather and a bear paw print. This is highly offensive. Can you see why it can be quite upsetting to Natives when seeing something like that? If we wish to obtain great knowledge, we must first obtain empathy and understanding for all the people of the world.
There are different contrast across tribes and different terms that cannot be lumped together into one prepackaged outfit. Not every tribe is the same and that should be remembered. Not all of them have the same specific traditions that others do. In just one instance, the “Spirit Animal” is referred to as a “totem” that an entire clan shares. The totem is their overall guide for the life of every person in the clan. When a person in the clan dies, their spirit is absorbed into the animal. This is just one variation. Just one. So you can see why it is upsetting for a person of Indigenous heritage to see someone wearing a shirt that says, “Coffee is my Spirit Animal” among other examples. A “Spirit Animal” is not something you want or already consciously possess. It is not even something that is “like you” in these areas. Internet trends have you fooled. It is so important to not only be respectful of people’s family and heritage but to make sure you fully understand what you are getting into with Animal Medicine and Symbolism. Please look at the truth behind some of these prepackaged deliveries that come across our screens with just a google search.
Now you may be asking, “Can I still use this practice?” In my personal opinion, if it is about someone else’s family and personal heritage or a variation that was invented by some weird Guru, I say no. If it is about a world heritage of animal symbolism? Then I say yes. Making sure to learn the truth of animal symbolism and not appropriate a heritage. There are even a few practices in other cultures that are similar BUT they are not interchangeable. They are also NOT called “Spirit Animal” under any circumstance. This term is for the Indigenous people of the Americas. The terminology used should always be out of respect. We must respect all human beings and care about them when they are being hurt, used, or misunderstood. A great step further would be to learn more about your heritage’s relationship with animal guides and the self. Every culture in the world has some practice involving symbolic language and the ‘self’ but they are ALL different. I am going to cover every single one still on record and known in this age. Yep, you read that right, I am going to cover every single one because I want you to know about your people and the heritage that may have been taken from you. When people have been wiped of their own cultures, it may cause them to take from others, or to latch on to trends. A lot of times unknowing until a shift reveals this problematic and very real phenomenon. I am hoping this will help pull people away from the imitation “Spirit Animal” culture that now exists on the internet. It is not Indigenous Spirituality. It is stolen pieces from scared Indigenous traditions. I also want you to remember, the trends on the internet with spirit animals, are coming at the expense of Indigenous Americans. It must stop.
If you wish to actually become a student in Indigenous American spirituality, it is important to find an Indigenous elder that is willing to teach you. Asking their blessing and permission is a huge start and compensating them for their teachings is a must in such a setting. They may not want to teach you everything. Be ok with that. Also, understand that if a tribal elder says no, they wish not to teach or tell their family medicine to you, respect this. Pay them for their time and be ok with what they felt. I must stress again, it is important to compensate elder spiritual leaders for their time, many reservations are impoverished. There are many that do not even have running water. A great injustice in itself. Be respectful of these elders, they are of such a great people. The land you walk on is made from their ancestors.
Furthermore, I study all Animal Symbolic systems but actually only follow my family’s way. I believe it is important to be educated about others. Learning the basics is ok, practicing is completely different. (Note I said basics. Their personal family heritage is only for their family and a chosen few.) When you know about other people’s cultures, in a fundamental way, you can know when someone else is being abused or taken advantage of. You can be an ally to help Indigenous communities when someone is teaching the paths that appropriate and hurt them.
In this series, I have written about all of the different types of Animal Symbolism in the world, to help people understand a few things: I want people to understand that what they are subscribing to with online trends is not what Indigenous Spirituality is. I want them to see how it cherry-picks, mislabels, appropriates, and abuses a whole group of people and their traditions. Through this understanding, people can learn the lost ways of their own true cultures that were colonized and erased. Helping people find themselves and understand that they may think the colonization of some has nothing to do with them but it actually has to do with everyone. I want to point out the rich textures of this earth’s antiquity and the stolen history of the world’s people. If we start to understand the differences between each region’s Animal Symbolism, we can make sure that misinformation isn’t running Google, and even if it is… we can make sure not to partake in it. Education is the answer. Compassion and empathy for others is the key.
In the first blog in this series will cover as many overall geographical heritage masses as possible. Then list names for sections of these areas. I am going to talk about what happened when Europe was Christianized. Many of the European Tribes lost their tribal heritage and their own spirituality when the Romans colonized the land. This will not be a bash fest on Christians or the descendants of Rome. This is a reclaiming of the pre-Christianized beliefs pertaining to animal symbolism on all continents. In the blogs to follow I have also written inserts about each area of the world that has been colonized. This will not be only about Europe, this is where we are beginning because this is where it started. Again, there will not be any bashing of any human alive today. I believe in leading with kindness and understanding. There are subjects we did not learn in school and it is time they saw more light. I will also include a large section that my Grandmother taught me about and family knowledge about our own personal heritage.
The study will cover each of the Tutelary Deities that spread all over Europe and then how their “removal” spread outward from there. Then I will give smaller region examples and site examples left in historical documents about specific tribes of Europe. Most will be corroborated documents, some by Piny and Tacitus because they did seem to be very unbiased in their documenting.
A few outlined examples: The Celts actually called their animal relationships ‘Aisling.’ They dreamed while they were awake and asleep to communicate with animals. They also read their omens together in their family’s sacred circle. Dreams were respected and followed as a life source to the whole community.
In addition to the Tutelary Deities, I will cover the totem animals of the Elder Goddesses and Gods. In Northern European Norse traditions they were called Fylgjur. All pantheons of the old world (in every culture) have their own animal helpers that aid, send messages, and bring back messages.
In Old Norse culture, The Fylgja itself is the animal spirit of the person and it is the spiritual self. These animal spirits sometimes died with the person it was tied to and other times stayed with the family. There are also terms that pertained to the entire tribe’s Fylgja and the family’s Fylgja. In turn, this is how many families adopted animals as their family sigil or crest after colonization. A way to keep their sacred traditions, even long after their descendants forgot.
My Grandmother specifically taught me about Fetch Dreaming. This is about spirits that are just in animal shape, bringing messages. She also taught me about Ornithomancy, which will be covered extensively. My Grandmother’s people called their ways, ‘Animal Speak’ and looking closely at the overall practice of animal speak, it is tied to a Tri-racial group from the Appalachia that migrated into the Ozarks. This happened when cultures collided and then blended about 300 years ago. I will discuss this thoroughly as well. This is one side of my family and it is important to discuss because its traditions are dying out. I have been endlessly documenting these traditions over the last 16 years. There will be specific areas outside of European cultures I will discuss in-depth, but only the areas I have personal family ties to. I will depend on others from cultures I am not akin to, in the exploration of regions that do not pertain to my heritage. These collaborations have come out of respect and solidarity.
These are countless examples that I will cover in this series. After the series, you will still have so much to learn, but hopefully, you will be set in the right direction. I aim to clear a path for you. I will stress that the use of the term “Spirit Animal” is not to be used by anyone that is not Indigenous. What many of these websites are selling you is not even remotely Indigenous spirituality, but they have stolen pieces of a scared heritage that is not their own. As I have said for years, it is very important to listen to elders and read books. The worldwide web isn’t so reliable for information. Reading truly is fundamental. That being said, I will have a large book list available with this series. Any area that I do not have personal family knowledge of, will not be covered extensively. Instead, I will provide a short foundation that is fundamental and aided by people of the said culture, and then recommend a book written by a person that is from that respected culture. I believe that understanding a person or a group of people will give way to empathy. It is important to understand why what is happening to these cultures sparks upset, anger, and mistrust. As a person with a multicultural heritage, I hope I could try to be one of many to unite all of the pieces of me and all of the people I belong to. Hopefully, I could try to be a bridge that can help unite these broken roads. All of us can learn so much by listening, respecting, and understanding. Solidarity is the world’s only hope.
Thank you for reading this post. Many Bright Blessings.
Many times you will find the internet to be one of two things; your best friend or your worst enemy. There is never an in-between. The same goes for the never-ending yarn ball of information about crystal properties. I have never been so puzzled in my life. Many websites are “copy and paste” models from ten other websites that are the living embodiment of misinformation about crystal properties. There are amazing crystal writers that I love but if you google them, you will find that websites will slap the names of these trusted sources under paragraphs they did not write. I suggest always going to the trusted author’s website or using their books as guides.
I wanted to blog about Quartzite because this is one of the most misunderstood and misrepresented crystals. The full blog about Quartzite and many extended blogs can be found on my Patreon. www.Patreon.com/Evil_Pawn_Jewelry
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This is blog two of ten about the interesting subject of Rose Quartz. Available here on the website blog and Patreon publicly. The other nine will be on Patreon. For anyone wanting to check out EPJ’s Patreon, please see Patreon.com/EvilPawnJewelry
Like many deep dive posts from 2014, I want to take on a deeper dive into not only the metaphysical properties of Rose Quartz, but I want to add what Birthstones combine with Rose Quartz for maximum effect. Some stones are like polar opposites and other are like magnets attracting. This is dependent on which Level a crystal is. I have posted about this on Patreon, and this weekend I will have a large post about bundles and combinations. For now I want to go into the truths about Rose Quartz Properties and lay down a foundation for a deeper understanding of this stone.
Think of all that we think we know about Rose Quartz. It is pink, it stands for love, it is in the level one quartz family, etc. The interest in Rose Quartz is all that hides under those layers of pink. The layers are much like the Rose flower, even in full bloom there is a center hidden from all of us. A place the sun never sees.
First, let us speak about what is known and true about the stone. Once we have this foundation laid down, we will speak of what is rarely in the light, but in plain sight. The layers of rose quartz, delicate, but strongly symbolic.
One part that is known; rose quartz is a stone of the heart and unconditional love. All love, all hearts, all categories of all love.
One part that is of old; A token of relationships. Attracting new love, strengthening an existing bond, and driving away all those who truly do not love you. Especially those that wear masks of another face for their own benefit.
One part that is unrealized; Some can use this stone, as a protection talisman, to keep people who do not love you far away from you. A protection device. Energy and color therapy of rose quartz can repel and help break some long time associations from walking alongside you on your path. Freeing you from emotional and psychological vampires that constantly feed off of you. A dissolvent that can free you, even when you are unable to free yourself.
One part that is practiced; A stone with energy relating to the heart chakra, giving you the best tools to clear all of the dark sides pertaining to the perceptions of love that isn’t really love. Clear out the hurt, resentment, and false love that has disguised itself before you wearing a mask. These things have nothing to do with love and shouldn’t be associated with it. Trust and love freely. Those who take it to a dark place do not live in love but try to make you think this is a part of love or the ‘dark side’ of love that does not truly exist. This is for their own benefit, not yours. If they have you believing this is so, then you will not practice love for the fear of hurt. Hurt does not come with true love. (Not speaking of the ‘passing of a loved one’. This is a different kind of healing. What I am speaking of pertains to standing relationships that bleed because of ego) Let go of all dark perceptions of love. There is only a dark side of the moon. The heart is a place of bright water always and the sun never sets there in that one place.
Hop onto Patreon to check out all ten posts about Rose Quartz! From cleansing and concentrating the stone, charging, combination/helper stones, Birthplate placement for Geminis and Scorpios, Metaphysical Properties, shape meanings, Symbolic language of direction, and more. All posting this month and next! Happy Week’s End!
As a child, we always referred to them as worry rocks. Since I have become an adult, I have heard them referred to as thumb stones, palm stones, takers stones, and worry stones in kind. These companions fare in an overall way. The way is absorbent; a true taker. This is important to realize because there are times that worry rocks should be put away like a faring quartz but there are times when it should be held like a companion. The ancient use of worry rocks is vast but all associate with water. Rocks shaped by water, left smooth from the sea, metaphysically erode the jagged edges in the mind.
Traditionally, Worry Rocks were made of Soapstone, which is an absorbent of all excess energy that sits at the top. Before this, in antiquity, any soft stone from the ocean would do. Marble has also been discovered as a popular worry servant of old. Over time, I have seen so many different types of worry rocks made available, but each has specific absorbent characteristics.
Worry Rocks are great concentration tools for the mind, spirit, and body. More on this subject posted on Patreon. Happy Week’s End!
When I was a kid I had this recurring dream that I was in my Grandparent’s kitchen, and there were these yellow swirled breads on a dish. I saw my little hand grab one. Although I was a child, I knew in my dream I was even younger, these layers are never to be underestimated. I remember not liking the raisins on the bread and I spit them out. I held these two nasty little half-chewed raisins in my little hand. Looking at them. I looked up and saw a double-cross on the wall. That was it, or that was all I could remember. My Grandma had a necklace like that cross, so I chalked it up to that being about her jewelry.
When I was about 13, I found this incense company I loved. Mostly because the logo to this specific scent in the line was a stag depiction of Cernunnos. The design was more animal than godhead. I liked how his horns curled into a puffy swirl. I liked how there were swirls around the entire design. It hit me that it reminded me of that yellow bread with the raisins from my dream.
If you look through all of my sketchpads from my youth, you’ll see nothing but these swirls and swirl patterns of this dream bread. Swirly flowers, swirly trees, all the way to swirly people. I even have a painting of swirly people standing in the sea, steps away from a shoreline, with rosins raining down on them. Swirling shrimp swimming in swirls around their ankles.
Fast forward to a few years ago. I drew up this necklace, and there it sat ‘morgued’ as I call it, in my design cabinet. I didn’t think it was going anywhere. I cannot tell you how many shelves I have of morgues designs that exist for me and me alone. It lay in its bin, waiting to be brought to life or buried forever in the whirlwind of my own mind.
About last year my friend Mia started sending me recipes for some traditional Scandinavian breads that I was wanting because I wanted to change the ingredients a bit and make them at home. One of the recipes was for Lussekatter (Swedish Saffron Bread aka buns) One of them looked like that shape from my dream and the shape from the incense package. At this point, I realized that it may not have been a dream, may have been real. Who knows? Not too far fetched, me at age 4, hopping up on a counter to snatch some bread. Sound like me!
I went out to learn more about the shapes of the bread because it was driving me batty. Mia sent a cool video by an artist on IG named Saga-Mariah Sandberg. She had a video in her storyline about the shapes of the bread. An amazing storyline indeed! Some say they are supposed to be curled up cats. Some say they protect the body from evil. Ah, that symbolic language has me. As I read more and more about the shapes and their meaning I was just floored. These swirls could stretch out far back into time, loop up the past then curl back up, bringing now and then to a meet. Seeing what it was that I was not remembering and reviving it into consciousness. The Lussekatter is only for a specific holiday each year, but with my Lusse Necklace, I can find those protective swirls when I need them. How those swirls got me. Twisted up all these years over some bread. Really, it was more than bread. It was my family telling me things that memory had failed to hold tight. Those swirls stretched out and curled back up bring them back to me.