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Nisaba Goddess Coin Necklace

Nothing could mean more than a female scribe, especially to a female writer. She oversees all humans no matter their identity, but the representation can bring you to your places of becoming quicker than ink to pen. This beauty was the very first goddess I selected for this project and she means the world to me. She was inspired by my Grandma Veda. She is the Sumerian Goddess of writing, accounts, and grain. Scribes and accountants most often ended their text with the words “Nisaba be Praised.” These magical words are inscribed on the back of the Goddess Coin in Sumerian as, “𒀭𒉀𒍠𒊩” and they are magick indeed. 

Her crystals are Quartz, Sodalite, and Peridot. These crystals are perfect for writing, accounting, filing, organizing, and formatting. These crystals are Level One, Two, and Four. Making a perfect cross combination for writing, creative thinking, remembering, and keeping track. 

“Write it down.” 

I want to thank everyone that contributed to this project.

BahArak Shah – Historic Archeologist, Contributor

Zara Hadid – cultural anthropologist, Contributor

Aleah Yousefi Andrews – Masters in Middle Eastern Studies with an emphasis on societies and cultures, Contributor

My Grandmother Veda – Muse, Contributor of inspiration, guide, and watcher

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Rhiannon Goddess Coin Necklace

Some consider her an actual Queen and historical figure, others feel like she is an actual deity, and the majority feel like she is both. Her lore shares many attributes with the Horse Goddess Epona, but the love of Rhiannon reaches further into our hearts than Goddess status. Rhiannon was strong willed and made her own decisions, even when the world told her no, she said yes. She was untouchable and did whatever it was that her heart desired. She wielded her enchantments and magical powers with the flick of her wrist. When she was wrongly accused, she prevailed, because nothing in the world could hold her down. She displayed the speed and strength of a horse but also the unexpected majestic grace and enchanted movements reached upon in Horse Symbolism. Her coin is adorned with a White Moonstone and a snowy Quartz. Displayed with the magical three birds of Rhiannon that follow her shadow; she rides into our hearts forever as our true hero of the tale. One of the first female heroes, before the world we live in allowed them. She is Rhiannon. 

Rhiannon shows you what you are waiting to be and reminds you that you are your own hero. “I am here to remind you that you can have anything you want, by your own doing.” 

I thank everyone who lent their hand to this project. 

Orla O’Connor – Curator of Celtic Art, Contributor

Shannon Kelly – Writer, Celtic Scholar, Contributor

Nessa Walsh – Cultural anthropologist, Contributor

Raven Quinn – Muse, friend, contributor of inspiration, strong for battle and delicate like a songbird. Love you lady! 

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Boudica Coin Necklace

Today’s spotlight is not on a Goddess, but an ancient and shining one all the same. Boudica was the most famous Celtic Tribal Queen of Britannia. She fought to save her people from the invasions of the Roman Empire. Her bravery and warrior spirit are legendary to this day. She fought for her truth until the bitter end and is an everyday reminder that your fighting spirit can never be defeated. No matter what the scorecard says, you prevail by perseverance. Your fight alone makes you unable to lose. 

By celebrating her warrior spirit, we are remembering empowerment in ourselves. I thank everyone that lend their hand to this project. 

Jamie Sawyer – Muse, Warrior, Friend, and contributor of inspiration
Orla O’Connor – Curator of Celtic Art, Contributor
Shannon Kelly – Writer, Celtic Scholar, Contributor
Nessa Walsh – Cultural anthropologist, Contributor

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The Hand of Hekate Necklace

I appreciate all of the kind encouragement through the manifestation of this piece. Posting the rough molds was a little scary because there was so much that was unseen going into this necklace. Sometimes the story is never seen, so your interpretation of the story you are retelling through art, is also cloaked in your mind. 

A very long time ago, I saw a photo of a Great-Great Grandmother in my family tree. There was not a lot of information about her but she was interesting. I was determined to learn more but no one could really tell me anything. Genealogy research also went nowhere. She was quite the mystery. When that happens in ancestry, you start researching their names, clothing, and jewelry in photos. Her name was Amandus (Amanda) Rossetti. Her mother’s name was Mahala. That and a photo of her as a very old woman were all we had. Secondly, I studied the dress she was wearing. It was not of any major significance. Her white hair was piled on top of her head and you can see a necklace around her neck. It was somewhat clear, but I had a friend of mine zoom it in and clean it up a bit. She was wearing a necklace known as a Mano Cornuto or the Sign of Horns. An Italian Amulet that looks like the “Rock and Rock” hand gesture but facing down. Mano means “hand” and Cornuto means “horn” and like the Italian horn, it protects against Malocchio, which means the Evil Eye. These symbols have been around before Italy and before Rome. They have been found prior in Greece and even Ancient Sumerian cultures used them. Not to mention the Karana Mudra, among many others.  

This propelled me to take several classes on hand gestures and their symbolic meanings from antiquity to now. I was taken aback by the meanings and beliefs behind them. This was when the internet didn’t offer classes, so I had to take in-person workshops, so it was over a several-year basis. From there I branched out into learning about hand gestures deities used and were known for. I was so geeked out on these hand gestures that I found myself one day, years into research, that all started from a very old photo of my Great-Great Grandma. This is an exact example of how my brain works, I just keep gobbling up info until I’ve paved a highway. I then look up and see that I am miles from where I started.

This pendant is a huge symbol of that essence of me, combined with something from my family’s distant past, and more than anything a huge dose of the old ways. This pendant is Hekate’s hand projecting protection from all who target you. Her snake is symbolic of you being able to shed anything that tries to attach itself to you, like old skin.

Hekate’s Cuff and Ring have a stone choice of obsidian or amethyst. A few people that viewed the work in progress told me I would be “on trend” if the nails were long and pointy. The thing is, I wanted an edited design that would last the test of time. One day, that may not be on-trend. When that happens things seem dated. I like the idea of timelessness. Just as this hand gesture is timeless. Just as Hekate herself is timeless. 

Thank you for reading this blog! This necklace is very limited and will not be around again. When these are gone, they are gone. All of my love and many many bright blessings!

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Limited Memoria Pieces

The Memoria Pieces are listed on the website and I am taken aback by this project in so many more ways than I could ever describe. The Memoria Pendant is a nod to the memento keepsakes of the past. The necklace and ring settings are ready and only requires your memory contribution. After purchase, ship the hair, ashes, furbaby nails, etc. to us for setting. Our address can be found on the Q&A page on the website. Also stated below: 

Girl World Design LLC/EPJ
P.O. Box 11163
Kansas City, MO 64119

For questions about the necklace, email 

I have been working for some time on these pieces to remember family, friends, and furbabies. Much like hair mourning pieces of the past. These are a very limited-time offering. There are only 13 to 18 of each setting. When they are gone I will not make them again. These EPJ Memoria pieces will only be available for a small amount of time and when their time has ended, they will not be available for remake or custom. Energetically, these are the only ones I can do. I did one last year for a dear soul, and it was so special! It really helped me through a lot. I am so grateful for that piece. The project definitely helped me get back to making hair jewelry. I hadn’t for so many years. 

I am so excited to release these because they have been a lot of time and hard work. A labor of love. In the sample photos, I used my own hair, hair from my Grandma Veda, my Aunt, and an amazing friend. I am currently making a ring with my Grandmother’s ashes and it has been therapeutic. The thought that she will be with me in this ring is such a beautiful feeling to have in my heart. I also have some hair from one of my Grandma Beverly’s beloved horses. This is so exciting! I am hoping to make something amazing from those precious hairs to pass down to family along with these other pieces. While I am working in this type of space, I want to open it to others for the same memory pieces. When these are gone I am closing custom orders for memory pieces for years to come. I may not be able to come to the point to make more again, but I will leave this open just in case. 

Thank you for this space to cement memories of loved ones, in a visual view, for all to see. Many Bright Blessings. 

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The Hex Breaker Amulet: Talisman Science and Amulet Mapping

Many times I see the word, “Amulet” next to a beautiful object. Usually a necklace. Usually something grand. Question. Is it truly an amulet? The same can be said for the word “Talisman” and the same question stands. What is a Talisman? Can It be both? The answer is Yes and No.

Amulets offer protection. Most of the time I have seen the word used it is misused, and in reality, it seems like this is a “fashionable way” to simply describe a necklace. In my humble opinion, it is misleading. So what is an Amulet and what is a Talisman? And what is the difference?

An amulet uses power symbols of protection involved in the design and the symbol or symbols incorporated are used with intention, furthermore correctly. Amulets use symbolic language to shield and are not made during a specific planet or moon phase. They can protect the wearer from danger, and through symbolism, ward off unwanted energies.

Talismans are charged with specific magical properties that can span from protection, luck, or to apply the wearer with a desired outcome. Talismans are made over many moon and/or planet movements. Incorporating energy from these plants in a layered form. The Talisman is “charged” as the Amulet is magically symbolic. A good example is the Evil Eye symbol. This is an amulet, a symbol that protects you from the Evil Eye. If a maker were to charge it as they made the piece, it would be both, an amulet and a talisman.

The Hex Breaker is technically both an Amulet and a Talisman. Providing protection with the use of symbols and specific planet/moon phases. At the same time, made with moon water from specifically dated eclipses or Moons to provide empowerment. A talisman can empower with embedded energy. An Amulet cannot empower, only guard. The Hex Breaker is a cross combination of both.

The symbolic nature of the Hex Breaker has been one of the main questions emailed in. The planetary movements and Moon waters have been specifically stated, but the symbolic stages of the Hex Breaker were not. In the Hex Breaker Booklet, they will be thoroughly explained. Not just by their actual symbolism, but also by their placement and the whirlwind’s dialed positions on the face of the Amulet.

Here I will give identification and a brief description of each symbol for reference. Full understanding of the uses and placements of the symbols are detailed in the booklet.

Symbol One: Ausekis

Ausekis is a Latvian power symbol. It is sometimes referred to as the 8 pointed star. (Octagram) Representing Venus also known as The Morning Star. Appearing right before dawn, a symbolic metaphor for overcoming darkness. It is one of the Crosses of Lietuvēns. The other being the pentagram. These crosses are always drawn without lifting your hand.

This star is also known as the Anu Star, yes, this ties to Mesopotamia starting with the Sumerians and their pantheon. The King of Heaven Anu and his daughter the Queen of Heaven. Also known as The Star of Venus, The Star of Inanna, or The Star of Ishtar. Depending on the counterpart. They are all tied together.

This symbol was placed at the very top to represent the dawn but offset towards the first hour to represent moving forward. Also, offset from the middle symbol for increase or movement against misfortune.

Symbol Two: Hex Star – The Shape of Defense

When starting this project, I knew that shape was everything. The shape of the Amulet or Talisman must be the first symbol or shape that is laid out. You can easily use an oval, a circle, a square, or a rectangle; but it must make sense. I didn’t want to use a standard shape that is an everyday shape to the eye, I wanted to use a red-lettered shape from antiquity. I chose the Hex Star. This symbol has so many names and I have given a small list of those in the booklet.

Do not let this name deceive you. The Hex Star acts as a mirror and has been associated with protection from bad luck, evil spirits, hexes, and negative energy since antiquity. In many cases, it was worn into battle as a protection amulet.

Symbol Three: The Mirror – Divination Through Reflection

This symbol of the Mirror can be found in every single culture. This Mirror is the Pictish Mirror. I chose this Mirror not only for what it represents but also because of how this symbol has an effect on other symbols. A stratification of “spelling” if you will.

The Pictish Mirror is a mystery to many light-level scholars, but if you dig a little bit deeper, you will find that the Mirror’s reflection is quite clear. Divination is not something that can be accomplished without shadow work. This type of work cannot even be applied until we face the ego. The Mirror shows you the self. The self now, the self then, the self in the future.

Symbol Four: Fehu is the Creation

In this day and age, most seekers of knowledge concerning the old world, have known something of Fehu. A rune concerning abundance, wealth, and the “source” of wealth. This rune can also concern property protection; this can cover the property of the self and the movable property of the things you own. 
More on its position and whirlwind ties in the booklet.

Symbol Five: Triple-Disc Crossbar aka The Cauldron

The Triple-disc crossbar symbol also referred to as the cauldron, has a layered meaning. The Triple-disc in symbolism usually refers to the phases of the moon, but sometimes refers to the constellation regarding the gates of heaven. Cancer to Capricorn, summer and winter solstices, with the bar going through as the path. They are tied into the symbols on the same row for safe passage throughout each solstice.

Symbol Six: Whirlwind is Source

They are “source,” the push symbols, first seen in cuneiform and hieroglyphics, pushing in different directions. They give support to symbols that are overused like Fehu. The Whirlwinds like the ones on the Hex Breaker add energy to the symbol, sometimes slightly changing its meaning or giving an extra oomph. You can use the ones I have used when writing intention. Give your words a charge. Push and emphasis your words.

Each symbol is given the power of movement. Each has been activated and brought to life. Remember, when writing daily goals or even dreams… use a few whirlwinds. They wake up words and symbols like no other!

Symbol Seven: The Toll Cross — New Magic Inspired by Old

This symbol has a newer history that may be entwined with the old. It has been said that a troll cross wards off malevolent magic. Although this symbol has a newer manifestation, it could be entwined with a symbolic language of old. A cross of protection and ancestry. More details are in the booklet.

Symbol Eight: Triskelion, Triskele, or Triple Spiral

The Triskelion represents the movement of life, that we must endure, it is the only way we can become. If we are not moving, we are not becoming. May we continue and let nothing stop our cycle.

Life, Death, Rebirth — Past, Present, Future — Spirit, Mind, Body — Creation, Preservation, Destruction — Maiden, Mother, Crone

This symbol is to keep you in motion with the universe and in your own divine plan. As well as the universe’s divine plan for you. Just remember, the only things that do not grow are dead things. Even then there is rebirth on the horizon.

Symbol Nine: Four of Hearts

This symbolic language has two important acknowledgments regarding the Hex Breaker. One is what we may not see in plain sight, the Four of Hearts symbols in the center of the Amulet. The second is about the symbology of the Heart as a shape. More about these two ingredients in the booklet.

Symbol Ten: The Eagle

The eagle has the ability to see ahead, far ahead, and knows what is coming. He has eyes that can withstand the glare of the sun. The Eagle has the ability to pierce forward and have an overview of everything. When we are in it, we can’t always see the overview. When it is hard, become the eagle, floating above all of it. See it in an overview form that gives you that Eagle sight. Look at life the Eagle sees the world.

Symbol Eleven: The Helm of Awe — The Helmet

The Helm of Awe, oh the tales, the blending of tales. To see or meet Eye To Eye, in such a profound way; that all conflict can stop and understanding can be had. It is better to meet in peace than destroy. When two opposites meet and peace is had.

Symbol Twelve: The Serpent

This symbol is among some of the oldest symbols we have on record in this world. Rebirth, healing, medicine, renewal. So many different truths to this symbolism. Incorporating the symbolic language to heal thyself, renew thyself, and revive thyself from the depths is the best subconscious cast a person could ask for. The manifestation of the world: the beginning and the end, but there is no end. The snake will eat his tail. The corner world continues. Snake medicine is the first medicine and the last.

Symbol Thirteen: Waxing Moon

In this period of time, much is surrounding the Dark Moon and the shadow self, pop-culturally speaking. We must remember that no matter what phase is on-trend, that all phases are of importance, and emphasis on just one only will cause a great imbalance. The use of one for specific manifestations is important, but no one is more important than another. For this manifestation, we call the waxing moon. I wanted to emphasize this phase of the moon because it has to do with your own increase.

Symbol Fourteen: Circles on Bail

This is one of the many cycles, phases, chapters to a book that has no real ending. The snake will always eat his tale. The circle does not break.

Symbol Fifteen: Pictish Beast

The Pictish Beast is the belly, the belly of the world. The place of intuition and gut feelings. This is the place where all feelings show themselves. From the butterflies in your stomach to their eerie feeling similar to dropping floors in an elevator. This is the place the spirit speaks. The beast is your intuition and protection center. Always listen.

Symbol Sixteen: The Center — The Cross of Chnoubis

“One god will hide another, but eventually they come together. They were the same after all.” — The center stands for the truth, and acceptance of it. The complexity of this place is only the web that humans wove it to be. We are the spider and the fly, but most of all the web.

Thank you for reading this condensed blog about the Hex Breaker Amulet and the science of Talisman and Amulets. The booklet is available now and is the first installment of a few upcoming books on the subject. The release of a book on crystals is up and coming this year, followed by two books about the specifics of Moonwater and a ten-book installment on Animal Medicine.

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Many Bright Blessings and all of my love to you. 

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Tiger’s Eye Uses and Metaphysical Properties

‘When the night burns bright to an unbroken ring around the moon, hold on to Tiger’s eye to keep you safe until noon.’ 

I love old sayings about stones. My Grandmother told me several when I was young, this one included, but I love to research all of them. The ones I know about and the ones I do not. The first thing I do in researching the Old Ways is to learn where the saying came from. What region on this planet was it first recorded? This particular saying was found often by the Scottish settlers of the Americas in the early 1700s. Often found in the Border Ballad tradition, seemly the most effective way for a tradition to stay alive as many were pressured to assimilate into the American ideology. Another popular saying about Tiger’s Eye, equally spread by the songs of Appalachia in the same timeframe, also came from seeing a ring around the moon. ‘When there’s a ring around the moon, rain or snow is coming soon.’ Now it is commonly called a “halo effect” but the symbolic language still lives and breathes. The halo often tells of prediction and depending on the placement of the stars… danger. When the ring is seen, it was known to grab a Tiger’s Eye and carry it the three days of the full moon. Tiger’s Eye is about “seeing.”

Upon further research, it is found that these same uses for Tiger’s Eye were found in the Middle East and the Mediterranean. Many believe the Romans may have brought these beliefs to Britannia a millennia before. Seeing that the gemstone of antiquity to Britannia was the Smoky Quartz and could be traced back to a thousand years before the Great Pyramid of Giza was built, it makes it unlikely. Still possible but unlikely. 

It does seem like the “7 Stones” were shared by the world’s heritage in some strange universal way. Oddly, every culture and every civilization used the 7 Stones in the same way. Tiger’s Eye being one of them, it would not be surprising if this stone’s lore wasn’t brought from place to place, but known universally by the people of the world. Predominantly found in Africa but also found in Australia, Brazil, Bruma, Canada, China, India, Korea, all about the Middle East, Spain, and the United States, but even found amongst cultures in places it was not naturally occurring. For example, Tiger’s Eye was highly associated with the early Freyja cults of the North. Of the first discoveries, researchers associated this with Middle Eastern trade that was known to take place between the cultures; being that Tiger’s Eye was highly-priced in Middle Eastern and Egyptian cultures, they could have shared the wisdom and the stone. It was said that traders may have brought this stone and its lore back with them. There are a few anthropology essays looking into this possibility. Upon further study, it has been noted that Tiger’s Eye has been found in graves of antiquity far before any kind of trade was known. The 7 stones defy all rules and timelines known to man. 

Tiger’s Eye has always been associated with protection in each culture, but this is sometimes misunderstood. Many believe Tiger’s Eye to be a stone of protection in the sense that is guards or shields you from negativity or low vibrational energy. This is not how it protects. Tiger’s Eye protects you by showing you what is. This can be the future of what is to come, the truth behind friendships, the clarity that is hidden under a foggy situation, or even an overview of the picture. Similar to seeing above like a bird or viewing a map. Tiger’s Eye gives you the Eye to make a plan. If more protection is needed besides “knowing” then Tiger’s Eye must be combined with another stone for protection. Usually a Level 3 stone or higher. For a protection bundle; it is best to use stones for each all-around protection. Example: Protection for the aura, protection from the physical, protection from the mental, etc. 

I will continue with six more posts about Tiger’s Eye on Patreon. I will cover clearing, charging, cross crystal combinations, and directional wear of the stone. Tiger’s Eye is a great ally and Level 1 helper crystal. An All-Seeing Eye. 

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Rose Quartz study. Post two.

This is blog two of ten about the interesting subject of Rose Quartz. Available here on the website blog and Patreon publicly. The other nine will be on Patreon. For anyone wanting to check out EPJ’s Patreon, please see

Like many deep dive posts from 2014, I want to take on a deeper dive into not only the metaphysical properties of Rose Quartz, but I want to add what Birthstones combine with Rose Quartz for maximum effect. Some stones are like polar opposites and other are like magnets attracting. This is dependent on which Level a crystal is. I have posted about this on Patreon, and this weekend I will have a large post about bundles and combinations. For now I want to go into the truths about Rose Quartz Properties and lay down a foundation for a deeper understanding of this stone.

Think of all that we think we know about Rose Quartz. It is pink, it stands for love, it is in the level one quartz family, etc. The interest in Rose Quartz is all that hides under those layers of pink. The layers are much like the Rose flower, even in full bloom there is a center hidden from all of us. A place the sun never sees. 

First, let us speak about what is known and true about the stone. Once we have this foundation laid down, we will speak of what is rarely in the light, but in plain sight. The layers of rose quartz, delicate, but strongly symbolic. 

One part that is known; rose quartz is a stone of the heart and unconditional love. All love, all hearts, all categories of all love. 

One part that is of old; A token of relationships. Attracting new love, strengthening an existing bond, and driving away all those who truly do not love you. Especially those that wear masks of another face for their own benefit. 

One part that is unrealized; Some can use this stone, as a protection talisman, to keep people who do not love you far away from you. A protection device. Energy and color therapy of rose quartz can repel and help break some long time associations from walking alongside you on your path. Freeing you from emotional and psychological vampires that constantly feed off of you. A dissolvent that can free you, even when you are unable to free yourself. 

One part that is practiced; A stone with energy relating to the heart chakra, giving you the best tools to clear all of the dark sides pertaining to the perceptions of love that isn’t really love. Clear out the hurt, resentment, and false love that has disguised itself before you wearing a mask. These things have nothing to do with love and shouldn’t be associated with it. Trust and love freely. Those who take it to a dark place do not live in love but try to make you think this is a part of love or the ‘dark side’ of love that does not truly exist. This is for their own benefit, not yours. If they have you believing this is so, then you will not practice love for the fear of hurt. Hurt does not come with true love. (Not speaking of the ‘passing of a loved one’. This is a different kind of healing. What I am speaking of pertains to standing relationships that bleed because of ego) Let go of all dark perceptions of love. There is only a dark side of the moon. The heart is a place of bright water always and the sun never sets there in that one place. 

Hop onto Patreon to check out all ten posts about Rose Quartz! From cleansing and concentrating the stone, charging, combination/helper stones, Birthplate placement for Geminis and Scorpios, Metaphysical Properties, shape meanings, Symbolic language of direction, and more. All posting this month and next! Happy Week’s End! 

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Worry Rocks

As a child, we always referred to them as worry rocks. Since I have become an adult, I have heard them referred to as thumb stones, palm stones, takers stones, and worry stones in kind. These companions fare in an overall way. The way is absorbent; a true taker. This is important to realize because there are times that worry rocks should be put away like a faring quartz but there are times when it should be held like a companion. The ancient use of worry rocks is vast but all associate with water. Rocks shaped by water, left smooth from the sea, metaphysically erode the jagged edges in the mind.

Traditionally, Worry Rocks were made of Soapstone, which is an absorbent of all excess energy that sits at the top. Before this, in antiquity, any soft stone from the ocean would do. Marble has also been discovered as a popular worry servant of old. Over time, I have seen so many different types of worry rocks made available, but each has specific absorbent characteristics.

Worry Rocks are great concentration tools for the mind, spirit, and body. More on this subject posted on Patreon. Happy Week’s End!

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The Lusse Necklace

When I was a kid I had this recurring dream that I was in my Grandparent’s kitchen, and there were these yellow swirled breads on a dish. I saw my little hand grab one. Although I was a child, I knew in my dream I was even younger, these layers are never to be underestimated. I remember not liking the raisins on the bread and I spit them out. I held these two nasty little half-chewed raisins in my little hand. Looking at them. I looked up and saw a double-cross on the wall. That was it, or that was all I could remember. My Grandma had a necklace like that cross, so I chalked it up to that being about her jewelry. 

When I was about 13, I found this incense company I loved. Mostly because the logo to this specific scent in the line was a stag depiction of Cernunnos. The design was more animal than godhead. I liked how his horns curled into a puffy swirl. I liked how there were swirls around the entire design. It hit me that it reminded me of that yellow bread with the raisins from my dream. 

If you look through all of my sketchpads from my youth, you’ll see nothing but these swirls and swirl patterns of this dream bread. Swirly flowers, swirly trees, all the way to swirly people. I even have a painting of swirly people standing in the sea, steps away from a shoreline, with rosins raining down on them. Swirling shrimp swimming in swirls around their ankles. 

Fast forward to a few years ago. I drew up this necklace, and there it sat ‘morgued’ as I call it, in my design cabinet. I didn’t think it was going anywhere. I cannot tell you how many shelves I have of morgues designs that exist for me and me alone. It lay in its bin, waiting to be brought to life or buried forever in the whirlwind of my own mind. 

About last year my friend Mia started sending me recipes for some traditional Scandinavian breads that I was wanting because I wanted to change the ingredients a bit and make them at home. One of the recipes was for Lussekatter (Swedish Saffron Bread aka buns) One of them looked like that shape from my dream and the shape from the incense package. At this point, I realized that it may not have been a dream, may have been real. Who knows? Not too far fetched, me at age 4, hopping up on a counter to snatch some bread. Sound like me! 

I went out to learn more about the shapes of the bread because it was driving me batty. Mia sent a cool video by an artist on IG named Saga-Mariah Sandberg. She had a video in her storyline about the shapes of the bread. An amazing storyline indeed! Some say they are supposed to be curled up cats. Some say they protect the body from evil. Ah, that symbolic language has me. As I read more and more about the shapes and their meaning I was just floored. These swirls could stretch out far back into time, loop up the past then curl back up, bringing now and then to a meet. Seeing what it was that I was not remembering and reviving it into consciousness. The Lussekatter is only for a specific holiday each year, but with my Lusse Necklace, I can find those protective swirls when I need them. How those swirls got me. Twisted up all these years over some bread. Really, it was more than bread. It was my family telling me things that memory had failed to hold tight. Those swirls stretched out and curled back up bring them back to me.